Hi guys. Looking some guidance/thoughts.

Back story; a few years back I had worked my way up in a small design agency from a designer and was asked to become director which was an absolute dream of mine. Fast forward 6 very short months later and the other Director fucked me over and the whole business collapsed and I was left with nothing.

I was in a very low place for a very long time and it’s only now some 5 years later I’m feeling more like my old self.

I’m now working in another agency and love it. The people I work with are amazing, the majority of the clients are great and I feel as happy as I’ve ever felt in my career.

But it’s not enough.

I’m 38 and keep feeling like “is this it?”. I want more but I don’t know what it is I want exactly. I guess I look at my boss and know I could do that (and have done that) very well and want to scratch an itch that’s still there.

I guess I’m asking am I mad for even considering doing my “own” thing again? My family were put through a lot of pain the last time it failed but it wasn’t my fault and I want to prove myself.

TLDR; after being at rock bottom in my career I’ve now got my confidence back but am unsure what to do next