They’re working on it. I think maybe something may happen with it by the end of this month? And don’t worry, I know I’m burning myself to warm them. I’m trying to fix that a bit. No, it’s not me that’s the target. The condition is straining all of our emotions and things are just in general not as happy anymore.
I’ve been living with my parents for almost 2 years now after graduating from university. Now, I have a job that pays me just enough to live off of and I’ve been wanting to move back to the city where I lived for University. But, my situation is as follows that prevents me from doing so. My dad has a condition, one of the worst conditions you can get, you can probably guess what it is and please don’t say what it is because I don’t like the word. Because of this, my dad can no longer work, and my mom has been trying to find work so I’m taking care of things. And, because of this condition, home life isn’t as great as it used to be and my mental health has deteriorated to nearly nothing. I don’t know what to do and how to get everything back to normal. I’ve been looking for apartments but how can I leave in good consciousness knowing what I’m leaving? I’m stuck and I cannot move literally and figuratively.
Having to pay for EVERYTHING! Want to not live outside? Gotta pay rent. Want water? Gotta pay the water company. Want to eat? Gotta buy food. Want to go somewhere? Got to pay for vehicle insurance.
I keep telling my friend that we’re heading to the Cyberpunk society without the cool cybernetics. Hell, Nestle tried to privatise water which FALLS FROM THE SKY.
Well, for someone like me who had no inkling of programming skill until I forced myself to learn, let me tell you it was HARD. Everything about my game was a learning process but I took that as a challenge to improve myself and make myself more adaptable for future projects.
To give you basically a rundown of how I’m making my game is I first started with an idea. I liked playing Paper Mario and Super Smash Bros so I decided on gameplay similar to those two. Then, I chose Unity based on a recommendation from a teacher. As I learned coding through YouTube tutorials and asking questions on forums, I started with a simple script to control a tic tac that runs around a quick map I made with primitive shapes. And from that initial prototype I added more and more things. Different mechanics, quests, etc. For art, I’m making most of it on my own since I’m an artist first thing but most I’m getting from free sites like turbo squid or the Unity Asset Store. Music and sounds I’m using temp stuff until I can get to making them.
For myself, even making a simple mechanic of controlling your cat to explore an environment is a game. Sure, it might not be GTA quality, but it’s still a game. From here you can make something more interesting. I always say that in order for something to look beautiful, first it has to look ugly. Even a beautiful butterfly has to start as a worm.
I use this dns.adguard-dns.com as a private DNS provider for my Samsung phone which basically blocks everything for me. Even apps. As for YouTube, I use revanced so I basically never see ads on my phone at all
Everytime I get a meal with vegetables I eat that first no matter what else is on the plate. I think of it working my way to the best part of the meal
I remember I was walking through a mall carrying a gift bag full of chocolates for my mom. It was one of those places that gives out those special types of gift bags so it was pretty obvious what I was carrying. I passed by one of those kiosks that sell phone cases and I heard the girl running the place call out to me. I politely waved at her and said “No, thank you.” And walked away. After I got out of the mall I realized the girl said “Oh, are those for me? You’re so nice!”
I thought she was trying to sell me something…
The craziest story I have is how close I got to becoming part of a crazy story. It’s odd now that I think about how my life seems to be censored. Back in high school I was part of a group of friends that would go out on the outskirts of my small hometown to play paintball. We’d play almost every weekend and I’d join them everytime. But, one weekend I didn’t join because I think I had a cold or I was working or something. But, that one time I didn’t join someone called the cops claiming that they were hearing gunshots going off. Someone called the cops on a bunch of high school kids and thus the cops showed up sporting shotguns and pistols. My friends had guns pulled on them. Luckily, the cops quickly realized what they were doing and left without any more trouble.
That was the one and only time I’ve almost experienced something even remotely crazy. That was maybe 8 or more years ago.
It’s about two people trying to find each other after a mysterious, deadly fog rendered the outside inhospitable to people. Odd lights start to appear in the sky, rumors of people made of light, and an otherworldly bell ringing in the air causing some survivors to lose control of their bodies are just some of the obstacles that get in the way of the two survivors trying to reunite with one another.
Well I started writing chapter 6 in my book. Cleaned up my sister’s place before she came home so I couldn’t work on my book today. And, my dad’s slowly getting better from his surgery and my mom isn’t hurting anymore. So, all in all, a lot better than I was this time last month.
I don’t really like nor do I dislike people. Having social anxiety as long as I have has taught me to have no strong opinions on people. I won’t go out of my way to talk to people not because I don’t like people but because I’m scared I’m going to say something stupid. So, I guess in a way I like people but my stupid brain makes it seem like I don’t like people.
Graduated university, moved back home, started looking for a job and that’s been a majority of my year. Oh, and I finally beat a bunch of games that have been on my list so I got that going on for me which is nice.
Thank you all for the advice. I’ve made a decision and I’m going to be moving to the city. My dad is in relatively good health right now so I think we can manage. Again, thank you all. I really appreciate it