People are painful to me. I find their presence painful. I’ve been this way since infancy. I created a suite of methods for keeping them away (methods like “passive-aggressive hostility”). These methods became deep habits. Later in life I hungered for company and couldn’t figure out why I was so bad at it. I just recently realized what’s up (thanks meditation). Do any of you relate?
Get into therapy. The best time to start was years ago. The next best time to start is now.
I had all kinds of anti-social coping mechanisms. Life was challenging in ways that made me an asshole. I’ve been able to unravel it about 97% and have made huge strides in other areas. I didn’t think I’d ever be where I am today. Do yourself a favor and find someone you trust (it might not be the first therapist you consult) and work on yourself.
Best advice from some guy you’ll ever get
not larping propaganda makes it really hard to communicate within “polite” society
In the land of the insane, the sane man is considered insane
I am antisocial by nature although I learned how to socialize " born an introvert learned to ambivert " it is simple my brother you just have to learn how to talk with people calmly also being alone is always better because you can hear your thoughts process life to make better decisions, people are always noisy and loud and mostly the majority of them won’t help you (that’s based on my experience alone tho because people differ from each other)
i felt this way too so i started therapy a while ago and that led to getting tested and diagnosed with autism.
i was surprised since i had known and worked with autistic people and seen depictions of them on tv and movies and never guessed that i shared the same condition that they did. many people refuse to believe that i’m autistic still.
i got that diagnosis when i first hit middle age and learning about it made me wish that i had known sooner since that knowledge would have helped A LOT in my past.
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