I think that OP is doing well and demonstrates a cognitive error that most of us have because of modern society- we believe that some people are intrinsically masters of a skill, instead of those skills being the product of years of learning.

Professor Barbara Oakley is the instructor of the incredibly popular coursera MOOC “Learning How to Learn” that does a great job of explaining the neuroscience of learning, and she emphasizes that many people (including her) were unreasonably discouraged from learning because of these false social beliefs that learning should be easy.

OP, think of riding a bicycle. (after you fell of that bike for the 20th time, did you say to yourself “i’m just no good at this, other people can ride without even holding the handlebars?” no, most of us just keep going and get better at our own pace, and our lives are richer for that new skill. it’s the same with your pursuit of literature.

i also think that skills you gain in critical thinking and composing your thoughts in the written word will make you a better human being, and hopefully help you in whatever career you choose.

classic sixers trap game to lose to a team missing its best player. horrible officiating, but good teams still find ways to win.

tobias getting out rebounded by melton is the most tobias thing ever

an UNPROTECTED first. those are incredibly rare and valuable.